It took a lot to busy himself with things; allow Tony that time to do whatever he needed to do. But, whatever he started, whether it was making coffee in the kitchen, or attempting to sketch something in his notebook while sitting out back, he found himself more distracted than usual.
Trying to put behind all the people that came and went while he was stuck there was practically impossible. Sure, he could displace the memories, keep them pushed back onto the edges of his mind and out of his direct thoughts, but he couldn't fool himself. That was a lesson he learned quickly.
But, after Jane left, and he was left in the house by himself, it was too hard.
He headed down to the gym, taped up his hands slower than normal and took position in front of the punching bag.
As he thought about each of the people he met there; Howard, River, Pepper, Tony, Hermione, Jane, Draco - all whom he invested a part of himself in getting to know, only to have taken from him - the punches became more aggressive.
The worst part was knowing that this was just another way for the city to get the best of him; break him down. It was another test, and eventually, it would return Tony home again leaving him alone.
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Date: 2013-08-17 07:56 pm (UTC)Trying to put behind all the people that came and went while he was stuck there was practically impossible. Sure, he could displace the memories, keep them pushed back onto the edges of his mind and out of his direct thoughts, but he couldn't fool himself. That was a lesson he learned quickly.
But, after Jane left, and he was left in the house by himself, it was too hard.
He headed down to the gym, taped up his hands slower than normal and took position in front of the punching bag.
As he thought about each of the people he met there; Howard, River, Pepper, Tony, Hermione, Jane, Draco - all whom he invested a part of himself in getting to know, only to have taken from him - the punches became more aggressive.
The worst part was knowing that this was just another way for the city to get the best of him; break him down. It was another test, and eventually, it would return Tony home again leaving him alone.
Because there was nothing for him to go back to.